malay?

Fyi, all my lectures and tutor classes are being conducted in English but there are certain courses that are conducted in Malay. and to switch from English to Malay is not actually a big deal for me as Malay is my mother tongue and that makes it very easy to me to read all the notes which are in Malay. but i guess i actually can no longer say that. i dunno why, but nowadays Malay language has adopted tooooo maaany words from English. it's like Malay and English are more or less the same. doing the revision has driven me crazy, coz there are too many words have been simply translated from English to Malay. for example, discussion to diskusi, solidarity to solidariti, feature to fitur, transformation to transformasi, etc. i dunno why but these words make me feel annoyed. as if we're losing our image as i've been taught that 'Bahasa Jiwa Bangsa', or if were to be translated, it means language is the soul of the race. but where is the soul of our race if the language itself is like taken from the other languages? and why do people like politicians, leaders, etc use those words? does that make them feel more respectful? for God's sake, there are actually words that could be the translation from those English words like transformation, it means perubahan in Malay. while feature means ciri-ciri. but why must they simply change the last syllable in those words and claim them to be our Malay words? i don't understand.


p/s : i cant believe i just wrote about a serious topic like this. like, this is so not me! haha. reading too many notes have turned me to be a different person now, omg.

forgiveness

for have been living for almost 21 years, i think im old enough to say that EVERYONE in this world is neither good nor a bad man. no one can deny that even though the one you respect the most,the one you look up to, the one you idolize, or the one you thought was perfect, somehow has flaws in him/herself. and if you're a muslim, you might've heard about our first prophet, Prophet Adam who has taken a wrong step when he was put in Heaven. that just proved that no one is perfect. people make mistakes. perfection is just too impossible to be true. i personally have lived with so many types of human beings, the im-such-an-innocent-person-but-why-do-people-do-this-to-me type, the i-dont care-what-u-think-as-long-as-im-happy type, the i-have-done-nothing-wrong-but-why-do-people-hate-me type, the i'll-be-good-to-you-only-when-i-feel-i-need-you type, the im-such-a-good-fren-but-why-do they-treat-me-this-way type, etc. to list all of them would take days. could be months. and at the end of the day, everyone has made mistakes at some point of their lives, big or small mistakes, there must be atleast one (which is impossible). As an imperfect God's creature, i think people should forgive each other no matter how awful they have treated you. but i have to agree though, to forgive is easy but to forget is actually the hardest part. i've been through it, trust me. and i stil cant seem to forget what that person has done to me. ppl can be so so selfish they thought they did the best thing. they ditched you, they backstabbed you, they made empty promises, they talk behind your back, but after all they are just as imperfect as you, dont you think? God has made all human beings equally weak. and its left to us to accept it or not. like my mum always says, the person who you thought was once a monster, could be an angel to you someday you wont know. he/she might also be the one who help you and lift you up when you are drowned. we dont know. so lets forgive each other. especially among friends. this is entirely dedicated to myself, as i find it so hard to just utter those words, 'i forgive you'.

long time jack!

its been AWHILE since i last posted my last post (is this sentence correct?) haha. ok it sounds so wrong even IF it was correct. and yeah, that was it. i feel like ive left this blogging world for like, ages. literally. like all of sudden, the blogging-mode struck me and tadaaa! hehehe... (i absolutely have no idea why i act this way so do not ask me). well, my previous posts have been sort of in sorrow, emotional time. maybe it is because i always felt like writing when i was in the doldrums. it kinda calm me down as i can type it all out and like, get everything out of my chest. i know that no one might read it, but they are all written simply because writing's been like a therapy to me whenever i needed it. and at the same time, it could help me in my writing skills as this is the section which i am very poor in. i think this might be caused by the lack of writing, compared to when i was in secondary school, writing had been nothing to me and to make an essay, was just like snapping my finger (sound so cocky). but it has completely transformed when i entered university. my writing got worse, and looking at my other friends' writing was like a wake-up call to me as i realised that my way of using the language have left like, way behind. to make things clear, im actually taking a degree in Language and Linguistic, and im majoring in English and that is why this whole thing is like, huge and important to me. u might get shocked knowing it coz i dont sound like a major in English, do i? well i have to admit that i did improve since the day i first stepped into this university. but im still very worried of my very limited-range of vocabulary and my grammar. so..im hoping that by blogging it will somehow contribute something to my performance in class :)