love

i'm in love yet i dunno how to define love. well maybe that is called 'love'. undefinable. sometimes it could be so confusing we just want to quit. sometimes it could be so pleasant we wish we had never gotten out of it. but it all depends on our destiny. the right person that is destined to be with us might come or might not come. or if he/she eventually came, it would probably be at a very wrong time. therefore love might come with an unwelcome feelings like hatred and guilt. thats what i currently feel and that's what i'm going through. i feel guilty. i feel guilty to love. am i wrong to choose whos better and who deserves me more? is it just a cruel action to say goodbye to someone for someone who i actually really love? or isit just a feeling of missing all the sparkles in the relationship which makes me attracted to a new episod of my love life with someone else? should we be fair and let ourselves not feel happy just to please others? can we be selfish in order to feel satisfied?

however i believe, just because he doesn have the criteria that ive always wanted, that doesn make him a bad person. and if he had the sweetness and perfectness like someone else did, that still doesn make him a better person. well to be safe, i choose not to decide. let time does. coz we cant predict whats gonna happen in future. for now, i choose to be grateful for wut i have ;)

hatred

living my life in the hostel has taught me alot. ive discovered so many things about people, how mean they could be, how manipulative they could be, how bitchy they could be, how super nice they could be, how angelic they could be, blah blah blah. And trust me, those are the last things i would ever like to know. however i kno God shows me those things for a reason. He might want me to not be like them, which i really hope so.

i also learnt that people could be super duper kind and transformed to rigorous and heartless creatures in the next second. and that caused me to hate them as much as i used to like them.

thank you for being mean and not noticing it, thats just so pathetic for a person who complained ALOT about others.

awesome!

so luv quotations. haha. been dreaming to create one, but neva turned out well. n all of sudden it’l become so ironic i cant tel ya! haha..but yea, this is the best quotation ive ever found. its not so ironic but its gud enough to inspire ppl (big talk from me isnt it! haha) but yeah…go thru it n ur gona find it the same i did. n btw, its from mahatma ghandi.



CAREFULLY WATCH YOUR THOUGHTS FOR THEY WILL BECOME YOUR WORDS

MANAGE AND WATCH YOUR WORDS FOR THEY WILL BECOME YOUR ACTIONS

CONSIDER AND JUDGE YOUR ACTIONS FOR THEY HAVE BECOME YOUR HABITS

ACKNOWLEDGE AND WATCH YOUR HABITS FOR THEY SHALL BECOME YOUR VALUES

UNDERSTAND AND EMBRACE YOUR VALUES FOR THEY HAVE BECOME YOUR DESTINY.

pfft.

I always find myself as a thinker, not a brainy one though. I just like to sit, daydream and think about random things. My mind can hardly stop thinking even when I was watching telly, reading a book, during lectures etc. Eventhough I must say that I don’t think as those genius do, but stil, I think a lot. sumtymes it can be so distracting it makes me lose focus on wut I was doing at sum particular time. For example when I was happily enjoyed watching titanic, I cudn stop thinking on how the directors and how every scene has been shot. And the next thing I know, ive missed some important lines in the movie. Not only that, when Im on flight, I just cant stop thinking about how the plane was invented and how could a human being possibly think of making this heavy solid creature fly til I missed enjoying the mind blowing scenery from the sky. See? I think too much til i think im gona go crazy soon.or am i?

today.

today i woke up and i realised that im alive. isnt that impressive? hehe. thnks to Allah for giving us every second to live, to laugh, to love, to cry, to learn, etc. i duno y im being so religious, but this has jus popped into my mind. hopefully tomoro i wont forget to thank Allah :) I dun lyk people who keep complaining about their miserable lives, coz i believe thers sumone else outhere is having a worse tym than we are. plus, God will never give us sumthing that is unbearable to us. so, dont complain. think more, speak less, complain nothing :) hahaha omg skema gile aku!! actually this is one of the ways to remind myself abt all this. besides listening to my umi's preach...hehehhe......

just because.

just bcos all of my frens are having blogs,so i started to think of having one. and tadaaaa!! haha..

welcome me :D